step by step

So i had my 1st walk in the pool, after so long.

To people who didn't know, it was a first step to recover the ailing muscles, resulting from the complete just-lie-on-bed-till-u-recover process to heal herniated disc, which i was suffering from the past few months, but we will get on to it later.

It was hard to get rid of the bed bugs, especially for people like me who at normal routine would sleep through the whole morning and be awake earliest at 11am-ish. Still, I've a new found determination to lead a normal healthy lifestyle, starting by going to bed early so i'd make it for morning walks and breakfast so the day would felt much productive and long and yada yada.

And awake i did. Within minutes i was ready to go, accompanied by my dad and Valerie.

Theres so much mixed feelings upon being in the pool. I was scared, scared if i overdid it again. Scared if the pain would come back. Scared and wondering if this thing is ever gonna recover. The negativity creeps in every once in awhile, especially when I'm in my rehab process. I had to walk everyday for 10 to 15minutes a day as part of the rehab, to slowly regain my movements and just walk normally. And now in the pool, these thoughts would afloat. Heavily sighing through the walk, I've always wondered if i can ever go back to having a normal lifestyle, carefree movements, doing the sports i like, hitting the gym, carrying my gf and whatnot. Its like the same routine. Every walk sessions comes with the blaming and sad thoughts.

On the other hand, i was glad I'm doing this again. This shows improvement, a far cry from the previous weeks where I can barely walk and had to just rest on the sofa playing ps3. I'm thankful i was able to bath in the morning sun, immerse myself in the calming waters, and hopefully continue this morning routine without fail.

Fingers cross that this continues with gradual improvements to the body. Be positive!