weekends

"Whatever we are waitting for - peace of mind, contentment, grace, the inner awareness of simple abundance - it will surely come to us, but only when we are ready to receive it with an open and grateful heart. "  Sarah Ban Breathnach

Is wasn't the best of years, but im embracing it one at a time, because honestly, i feel great about everything at the moment. Last week was great because of :
 

- i had my fav toffee nut latte from Starbucks. The last time i had the chance to enjoy my coffee, I was having a high fever to the extent of suspected dengue fever. Thankfully it was just another viral fever going around the neighborhood (there's so many people falling sick at the same time!), which makes tasting the latte at this time much more enjoyable and happier!

- the friends came to visit and for ps3 sessions! it was great catching up and just chill just like old times. lifts the depressing mood of just being at home all the time.

- had a slow-moving and leisure weekend with gf! not to mention enjoying our breakfast at plan B together. It was our 1st breakfast eating outside in a while so it made everything much more sweeter and memorable. And also shop for certain clothings for Japan trip at Uniqlo! We did get cheap bargains since it was having opening sales. But i think i've been out for too long... the back pains seems to be coming back.... sigh when will u recover........

step by step

So i had my 1st walk in the pool, after so long.

To people who didn't know, it was a first step to recover the ailing muscles, resulting from the complete just-lie-on-bed-till-u-recover process to heal herniated disc, which i was suffering from the past few months, but we will get on to it later.

It was hard to get rid of the bed bugs, especially for people like me who at normal routine would sleep through the whole morning and be awake earliest at 11am-ish. Still, I've a new found determination to lead a normal healthy lifestyle, starting by going to bed early so i'd make it for morning walks and breakfast so the day would felt much productive and long and yada yada.

And awake i did. Within minutes i was ready to go, accompanied by my dad and Valerie.

Theres so much mixed feelings upon being in the pool. I was scared, scared if i overdid it again. Scared if the pain would come back. Scared and wondering if this thing is ever gonna recover. The negativity creeps in every once in awhile, especially when I'm in my rehab process. I had to walk everyday for 10 to 15minutes a day as part of the rehab, to slowly regain my movements and just walk normally. And now in the pool, these thoughts would afloat. Heavily sighing through the walk, I've always wondered if i can ever go back to having a normal lifestyle, carefree movements, doing the sports i like, hitting the gym, carrying my gf and whatnot. Its like the same routine. Every walk sessions comes with the blaming and sad thoughts.

On the other hand, i was glad I'm doing this again. This shows improvement, a far cry from the previous weeks where I can barely walk and had to just rest on the sofa playing ps3. I'm thankful i was able to bath in the morning sun, immerse myself in the calming waters, and hopefully continue this morning routine without fail.

Fingers cross that this continues with gradual improvements to the body. Be positive!

Everything anew!

I shall start the habit of writing the daily thoughts again! Im having so much free time for the following and upcoming months, thus the sudden urge to write.

There is so many things to say, to remember. Im glad that im still here being able to enjoy and appreciate life everyday. We have often take everything for granted. Hopefully with all these daily reminders and inside thoughts that i or anybody reading this right now would be able to start appreciate the beautiful things in life that keeps us living and moving on.

I shall keep the thoughts to be written in other days though. Everything should start anew, starting from changing the blog page 1st... hmm... how shall i do that.......

something special

The friends are slowly going back, and so the so called holiday period is coming to an end. Reality hits starting from next week, shall not waste this upcoming months. Hoping for a very productive period ahead :|

I somehow had a very weird week. Funny how i failed a paper, which wasnt expected, but does not felt that heartbroken at all. Perhaps i was not ready to take the leap yet. Blank. I know i have to change, not just avoiding reality, but i dont know how, i cant, maybe i wont, huge sigh.

Maybe its time to realize, we all have grown. I should too.

Somehow deep down, i believe in God. I belive everything happens for a reason, and everything was planned as it was suppose to be, maybe for a better good. And maybe by retaking this subject, i would have experienced another few months of college, the good company, play good basketball, hit the gym, good food and good times with the love, and hopefully graduate together, and then that graduation photo of us can be a very memorable one... hanging on our future house wall? :)

This feeling i had with you is so special, i cant find the right words to describe it. I know they keep saying ily is the most simplest yet meaningful but it somehow doesnt work for me anymore. Because love is.. adorable, and every moment being together is so calm n sweet n comfy can die! :3 If only there were better words, hee.

people ask me whats there to love, i say whats there not to love? <3

in between years

So i decided to wrote something in this period again, the only month where i constantly write something, just to remind myself of this special day.

You see, i'd like to keep myself reminded of every moment i have through the years, but the fear of making writing mistakes coupled with the usual laziness always deters my own self from doing so. Big big sigh.

And i re-watched the Last Words episode from HIMYM, which explains the sudden shift of mood to note down my inner thoughts at this moment.

Sometimes i just wonder why people celebrate their birthdays. What makes that day so special? It just somehow came into my mind that we should appreciate our parents or mum for having a hard time bringing us into the world. She had a rough delivery process and i knew it was hard having me AND Valerie in particular, not withstanding bringing us up to where we are now.

So for celebrating my birthday, for treating me like I'm still a child in the family, for all the endless shower of love that i could ever have, I'd like to express my greatest thanks. I love you mummy! and dad of course :P